Last Sunday Service

Sunday, May 18th 2014
i got called from the sisters (they are my Sunday alarm) and said "today is the last sunday for Elder Sutadi, Elder Wood, and Elder Wijaya. :'(
at the church, the got chance to give a testimony. When i heard the Elders giving their testimony i was crying secretly. I hate "Goodbye". but as like elder said, "maybe in the other place they need them more". its been 6 months for Elder Wijaya and Elder Sutadi. But it just a short time he's been here. THEY ARE AMAZING!!!
I wont forget the first time i met Elder Sutadi, as same as Elder Wijaya and Elder Wood. And i wont forget all the memories and the lessons you've taught. May Heavenly Father always guide you and protect you in your mission and in your life after!! Gonna miss you guys!!!

stop over thinking!

It is funny how flexible or uncertain my ideas can be. I say it as I think of how many times malice has taken over me and made me see human beings at their worse, like when you unite all their bad habits and cruel actions and no longer trust anyone.
In fact, you shall not really trust anyone, not even yourself if you are vulnerable and lack self-control. Life has many dilemmas and some of them are solitude and togetherness. :(
I tell you, if you spend too much time with people conflicts will arise. Sometimes, conflicts that makes you long for isolation. In the other hand if you isolate yourself for too long you get overwhelmed by loneliness!! Balance is the obvious answer here, but for me, the solution would be thinking less.!!

people who loves you!!

they feel, they hear all my pain and my fear. but they're here, to say who i am. And i don't have to go through this on my own because im not alone. I have more friends than i know, some who surround me, some i destined to meet  and i'll have more love in my life:)

don't let go, just give it time. Take it slow , because those who love you the most, may need more time to grow. i know that everything's gonna be okay, bcause i know i have more friends than i thought 

i have to always be brave and be strong!!

Some day soon you will see you're exactly who you're supposed to be. And you don't have to go through this on your own,cause you're not alone

 Just be who you are learn to forgive, it's not about who you love but how you live with the people who loves you... 

It's gonna be okay :D

LOVE,

Zenta

anxious!!

Every time I try to write something my mind goes blank -.-
I have thoughts though. Mostly, weird ones and dumb ones. I haven't been feeling anxious lately. That is pretty good. I have been feeling zen, way too zen towards things I used to freak out about. Future! I just feel like 'whatever will be, will be' and, although this sounds and makes me feel good I can help but wonder..wait, you have to do things too, in order to not panic later on or not achieve what you want.

Trouble is I have somany things i want to achieve anything and that makes me a "person". All I want to do is preach the gospel,and go out from this country. I can't fully trust my zen state. I am sure it will pass and I'll become anxious about stupid things again. I think when you get older you realize that being worried and stressed out about your future or all your insecurities.
But, I do not think that's the point. I think what happens is one gets worn out and, become to accept the fact that one has to face things, sooner or later, good or bad..happy or sad.!!
 You slightly mold yourself into the system. I am used to being anxious; just wanted to document my zen period, cause well that's rare.





Love,



Zenta

MONster DAY (MONDAY)

hellow mellow!!
how's everybody today? hope everybody having a great monday!!

MONDAY isnt going really well so far. i slept at 4 am last night, and a big-huge pimple stick in my forehead sinless!! i feel like an indian. -.- but i always keep my confidence shine, and pretending to have nothing on my round face 0.o

college went not pretty well.. i woke up at 5 AM for morning class. but always always.. our BELOVED lecturer didn't show up in class. she doesnt know my sacrifice to be on time this morning! i went to "pasar" and take care everything in cafe first before i headed to campus! if i can scream out loud in campus this morning, i will do that..geez!
okay enough about the lazy lecturer story. because she always do the same thing over and over again. she doesn't know that with her behavior like this, she make us as a student to be LAZY HEAD like her.

i feel something weird lately. i have been quite sensitive to smells lately which is pretty weird once i am not and, i never felt sick when i smell pork. This morning i step out in the street (infront of my mom's house) and each step i feel the smoke from grill pork make me sick. Sadly, no matter how much of perfume I wear I can never smell it on me or even feel sick like this. Perhaps, it wears off easily. I sit on the "angkot" and inevitably think.. Whenever there is a bad smell in the air; it simply ruins everything. so i keep smell my fragrance everytime i pas a pork resto !!

i got a message from my friend M. she told me she feel sad of something. i've learned something from this.
if a guy has been holding himself in realtionship with you and when you already moving on, and he doesnt happy with htat?? just dont give any shhhh about him anymore. i've been in the worse situation before.. haha


eventho Monday is always become a MONSTER DAY for me, but i always take something to learn from it. keep your head held up and always be confidence with yourself!!!

bunch of Love,


zenta

Happy Sunday fellas ;)

hello guys!
How's your sunday? hope everybody having a wonderful Sunday :) bcause i`m having a great sunday :)

I went to the Church this morning and received the Holy Ghost after last week igot babtized and now i`m officially a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. i`m complete! My big assignment now is to keep my faith and my promise to God and also always follow what God say for me to do..
I am proud of being God's daughter and ihave made the right path to close w my Heavenly Father.

In the "asas-asas injil class" we have learned about obedience.. It went well and we shared our thoughts.. Elder G and Elder Sugode (sutadi) taught very well!!

And now i`m on my way to somewhere with my granny and my cousins.. Actually idunno where we will go to.. Ijust go inside the car and took my skirt off from the clothesline.. but all iknow is we will go to somewhere tyhat ican get free meal.. :p free food is always yummie :p

Ithink enough for now.. and iknow today iwill have a wonderfull Sunday! And wonderfull things will happen! ;)
With Love


Zenta

Zentational Life

Sup evereehbodeehhh!!!
I want to Thank to God for His Bless and Kindness i am so very grateful by it.
my life journey been wonderfully blessed!!!

playing with the clouds.. why not :p

my 2.0 journey just started this year!! (i'm not a KIDDO anymore)

work hard play hard!!!

Perfect 2012

Helloyellow everyone :)

I’m trying to remember how long it was since the last time i open my blog, but times goes so faaaast.!!
so many things happen in my life!! a loooootttt!! 
and the most important thing is I AM SO VERY GRATEFUL with my life now. how great God's work for my life.! 

here they are!! (i'm having a little flash back)

back to 2012... 
in this year i've met amazing people from different country and different culture. so many cherish moment i've done with my dearest friends and my beloved family. they are AWESOME!!! 

met these awesome OZ mates!! james and Kati

 

 

After Dinner at my mom's

Grany in Japan

Couchsurfing dinner

Allan, k'tea me and Desmond

what a cherish moment with ate Joan

CS Survivors ;)

its a good to be Liason Officer

i still have some good memories with all my friends and Family in that year but i can tpost all the pics from that year.. haha!! its been a PERFECT YEAR!



 cheers, 

Zenta :)